I've been an overachiever since college. I took way too many hours a semester, never really took a holiday break, and graduated in three years. I was hired for my first teaching job at 20, and at 23 had already taught for 3 years. In my head I was on the fast track to administration, and really valued my career. I lied to myself that if I was so successful and gifted in this area then that's where God wants me. (teaching was my vocational calling for a few years) Success is independent of calling, and does not always indicate God's will. Being successful (in societies eyes) does not require you to seek God's will. That's what I was doing. Being the world's definition of normal or successful. I worried about what people would think about me quitting, or relying on my husband for income. I was too proud to even consider quitting.
Money was a big excuse. We kept telling ourselves and anyone who asked that we couldn't afford for me to stay home. In reality we never even checked to see if it was an option. We've created a lifestyle that involves a lot of eating out, going to movies, and spending too frivolously. So if we continued to live like that it's not possible for me to stay home, but we had to decide what mattered more. Chick-fil-a or being home with our baby? 🤣 I'll share more about our new budget in a post soon!
I was fearful if I could do it. Could I measure up? Could I possibly be a good stay at home mom and wife? Daniel and I split a lot of the responsibilities that I will now be taking on. I worried if I would be able to keep the house spotless and cook dinner every night. While working (even before Sawyer) I felt like I had an excuse to not always have the laundry done or dinner made. I was scared that I would become lazy (watching netflix all day) or just get frustrated with parenting. What if I wasn't a good mom? All of those fears were such lies! None of those things even matter!
I am incredibly impressed by all of you working moms. I know that a majority of moms work, and that's exactly where God has called them to be! God has a different purpose for each of us in each season. Work will always be there, but our babies will only stay little for so long.
Money was a big excuse. We kept telling ourselves and anyone who asked that we couldn't afford for me to stay home. In reality we never even checked to see if it was an option. We've created a lifestyle that involves a lot of eating out, going to movies, and spending too frivolously. So if we continued to live like that it's not possible for me to stay home, but we had to decide what mattered more. Chick-fil-a or being home with our baby? 🤣 I'll share more about our new budget in a post soon!
I was fearful if I could do it. Could I measure up? Could I possibly be a good stay at home mom and wife? Daniel and I split a lot of the responsibilities that I will now be taking on. I worried if I would be able to keep the house spotless and cook dinner every night. While working (even before Sawyer) I felt like I had an excuse to not always have the laundry done or dinner made. I was scared that I would become lazy (watching netflix all day) or just get frustrated with parenting. What if I wasn't a good mom? All of those fears were such lies! None of those things even matter!
I am incredibly impressed by all of you working moms. I know that a majority of moms work, and that's exactly where God has called them to be! God has a different purpose for each of us in each season. Work will always be there, but our babies will only stay little for so long.
